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"Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you"

Okay so yeah, Wade is the best thing to happen to me since I don't know when. =] I had my mind made up when I came to Reidland to be popular. Well I'm on my way home sweet home. (I hope) It makes me happy the fact that I've got the captain of the soccer team. He is hot! So the girls stare. It makes me happy that he chose me. Little ol'' Chelsea. When I went to Tilghman, I was a nobody. I was made of fun of, my best friend was a grade below me and we faught a lot. I went thru a mild heartbreak, when my first boyfriend broke up with me. Then I had a redneck boyfriend. Afterthat, I was just made fun of some more. Then I didnt play softball last year, and that killed me. I played volleyball last year, but all that was WAS drama!!! yuck I hate conflicted stupid drama. But anyways I wanted a new start and so I came here. Well the first day I was scared because, they said I wasnt enrolled. UHOH! So at the time was talking to TJ Gaines. Well ugh, I was on crack maybe... I guess I dunno. The I walked into my pottery class and there was Wade talking to Haley. I thought they were a couple. Weird now I guess hahaha..haha.hah. And I was wanting him so badly even without knowing his name. He looked at me and asked me where I was from. I told him Tilghman. LATER THAT DAY.... He walked me basically to my next class and we talked. I knew he was the one, I just didnt wanta believe it.

Now today, I've been with him as a couple for almost a month and I am in love with him. I can tell that I am. And he tells me he's in love with ME!! He kisses me on my head before we leave each other in school, he holds me close and he kisses me like I've never been kissed before. Today he told a guy to move out of the way "His girlfriend was talking to him." In front of Cody and Kyle. (Cody = shorter hair, Kyle = fauhawk) sorry that's the only way I can remember which twin is which. And I just can't explain how I feel right now.

-TO WADE. IF YOU'LL EVER READ THIS, .....

so this is monday?

 well thursday i met my boyfriends parents, they seemed kewl. which is good and they got along with my parents. homecoming was so much fun.

ill write later mrs. benton's looking at me ...

okay so yesterday i was pretty pissed off at everything. well okay so he didnt go and he held me for a long time. and told me everything i wanted to hear. so im in a great great mood today. except for in my 1st class today, this mixed whigger girl like stared a hole into my side.... which kinda made me mad and weirded out. but anyways wade and i are going to celebrate our one month together sunday and i am really excited!/

ttyl

well today. is a good day.

but yeah. so in a couple days itll be a month for me and wade yay. im glad that we have already came this far. some people don't even make it this far. my last relationship was only 6 months and his was just 3 years...../././

i wished that we could get on facebook in here. it makes me so mad that we can't even get on xanga.com

so anyways homecoming was great and we drove around town, with the seats heated. haha. and we went to arby's also. we're dorks. but yeah, so i am sitting in accounting && finance talking to sarah sexton. (um schaff and wade would kill me right now) ... but yeah. so i am so tired, because last night i had a headache and couldnt sleep. and my eyes feel allegyish. humm, omg i am really wanting to have like french fries from hammerhead freds. (in panama city) 

humm. wade said that he is in love with me.!

i miss heather.! and she misses me.! wow we've stiil managed to stay as close as we were.

If you go away
On this summer day
Then you might as well
Take the sun away
All the birds that flew
In the summer sky
When our love was new
And our hearts were high
And the day was young
And the nights were long
And the moon stood still
For the night bird's song

If you go away
If you go away
If you go away...

But if you stay
I'll make you a day
Like no day has been
Or will be again
We'll sail on the sun
We'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees
And worship the wind

But if you go
I'll understand
Leave me just enough love
To fill up my hand


If you go away
If you go away
If you go away...

If you go away
As I know you will
You must tell the world
To stop turning
'til you return again
If you ever do
For what good is love
Without loving you?
Can I tell you now
As you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly
'til the next hello

If you go away
If you go away
If you go away...

But if you stay
I'll make you a night
Like no night has been
Or will be again
I'll sail on your smile
I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes
That I love so much

But if you go
I won't cry
Though the good is gone
From the word goodbye

If you go away
If you go away
If you go away...

If you go away
As I know you must
There is be nothing left
In this world to trust
Just an empty room
Full of empty space
Like the empty look
I see on your face
And I'd been the shadow
Of your shadow
If you might have kept me
By your side

If you go away
If you go away
If you go away...

If you go away
If you go away
If you go away...

so today is senior night. which is totally sad because my babys a senior and i am going to probably meet his parents tonight. wow. this is a major big deal to me. like so much is riding on this. he's already met my parents so its okay with them. and my parents are also going to meet shane and diane boss. which i am soo nervous about. sorry i havent wrote in a couple of days, i have been terribly sick and missed school. i didnt get on my laptop at home so i have no entries. which is my fault totally. i got my hair re-done yesterday afternoon, it's black underneath with red and blonde highlights. its really cute, totally set for fall and winter seasons. ive got my homecoming dress also last night. its black and white super cute and super cleavage. so wade will be happy, at least i hope.

today was decades day for homecoming week: so i wore 80s clothes. a david bowie seethru shirt, white cami, mini mini skirt, black ballet shoes, big rainbow earrings, bangles, rainbow heart leggings, and white leg warmers. i think it looks cute. ill take a picture of me in it and clip it to this entry haha. so today was the first day ive ever seen candace shaw and schaeffan king together. which was weird because she's mixed and he's totally white. but anyways idk. so there is this thing i havent yet to tell anybody but wade himself. i am in love with him and i can't help but miss him when he walks away. yes, it is crazy to fall this fast (august 11, september 11,) so ive known him for over a month now. but still, i love him.

so like i am really bored right now! and ive got the hiccups! and so yeah, by the way i am really bored if your wondering why i am still writing. so ms. benton that biotch freaking gave me a 57 out of 100 pts. for my computer skills! omg i hate her.

What I really wanna know, my baby, what I really want to say I can't define. Well it's love, that I need, oh , but my
soul will have to- Sublime.!